I found I was secretly disliked by some in ways that are important to me.  Other people were put before me, like I'm a related joke to spin off of.  Moreover, I am not given a chance.  It's like I'm a joke, after all I do, to think I am okay.  I get mistreated, and other people will say that's just me like everyone else, at least of my generation.  I get judged since an infant, and others are off the hook because they were "still young," like kids and teenagers.  It seems what I have to say is tracked down as controversial as a topic.  However, others delve into these things and are not responsible emotionally and intellectually seem immoral under me.  So, other people my generation are "okay" and I'm not okay to them.  I know it's their little joke about race and adding things to the pot.  It's like, "Okay, we'll watch 'Christina.'  But we throw her away when it's all done."